My New Tattoo

Meme called as I was putting you in the bathtub & wanted you to spend the night...she wasn't taking no for an answer so you spent the night over there! We didn't know what to do a night with out the baby on such short notice, we were gunna just have a night of Skip Bo and hanging out. Steph & I have been pretty stuck on getting matching tattoo's of an anchor, the meaning is anchored for life b/c she's my BFF! I have this weird obsession with anchors & nautical stuff and then we saw the tattoo so we were hooked! (haha hooked get it! ) So we tried talking Daddy & Trav into going dancing but Trav didn't want to go so we said we are going to get our tattoos...well then they wanted to go dancing sooo we went...

 After dancing we decided we'd stop at the tattoo shop down the road but they were closed so so much for our great idea!

 We decided that Saturday morning we were going no more putting this off so we we were off...

 Stephy went first & she was a champ...she did say it hurt but didn't fuss nearly as much as I did. Having you was not as bad as getting this tattoo! I had intentions of getting a paisley design on top of my other foot w/ something else once we have your sibling but I'm sorry kiddos...not happening!

 They turned out just as we had hoped!

 Love them!

 See how much better Stephy was....

And then there is me the cry baby! Hahah!

4th of July

We've had a great time celebrating 4th of July! We have so much to be thankful for, but especially for the freedom we have!

We started our celebration last night, we went to the Forgy's for some fireworks. Who knew we'd also have such a good time seeing all of their animals. They have a pony, several horses, a turtle, a bird, a bunny, pigs, and cows...how awesome is that?! You rode on the pony for a second but he wasn't really up for giving rides which was ok! You liked the fireworks but got really sleepy so we watched from the car an you felt right to sleep! I didn't mind I enjoyed the cuddle time, there isn't much of that anymore ;(.

Today we went to Meme & Grandpas and swam, cooked, and did more fireworks. Stephy an Trav came it was a lot of fun! Dadday, you, and I took a four wheeler ride to try and figure out where we want to build out house... Such a tough decision. Anyways you liked the fireworks and had tons of fun! Too bad we have to go back to work/babysitter tomorrow...but the midweek break was nice!!

My Giggily 14 Month Old

What's new in your world?? I think most of the day you spend it laughing, sometimes at Daddy & I but mostly at Sophie! You girls crack me up, Soph loves you just as much as you love her y'all chase each other all over the house stealing toys from one another! You are so much fun!

At 14 months you:

Can say: Up, Go, Out, Sophie, Clo, Daddy, Grandpa, Aww, Guh (gunner), Hi, Whats that (I know pretty advanced!), I feel like I'm forgetting something...

Eat any and everything...well you have actually started turning meat down, but don't worry I trick you into eating it with ketchup!

Wear size 4 shoes, 12-18 month clothes, size 4 diaper.

Sing & dance all of the time!

Love the water, I had you in the pool and you were just a kicking your legs, blowing bubbles, and moving those arms! Hopefully you will learn to swim quickly.

Would be outside all day everyday if you could, the mosquitos are so bad that we haven't been letting you go out much. Even when we spray the yard the little blood suckers live through it! : /

Hate diaper changes, which brings up we have now bought a potty chair for ya...I know it's too early but I hope to make you more comfortable with it.

FINALLY have a tooth breaking through! Man I thought you'd be 16 and toothless! haha!

You take one bottle at night and we are going to see how you do without it tonight! (BTW your morning one is replaced with chocolate milk b/c you wont drink it any other way. Macey told me that with any other drink you will set it down and if Gunner gets it you dont care...but you won't set the chocolate milk down until its GONE! hahah)

You only take a paci when going to sleep & I don't see us taking that any time soon.

You love your baby doll & your blankie!

You can through a mad fit...I wonder where you learned that...but really where?

Leaving you in the mornings is getting harder, you cry for me! Man if only our Dinars would just hit, Momma could stay home!

Puppy Love, Clow is kinda hard to see...

Driving, there is a pic like this from a few months back I'm going to have to do a comparison with it.

 Playing with Soph!

 Oh Clo!

Mmmm Pizza!

 My Little Fish

Crazy hair baby!

Soph once again!

Sleepy girl!

This was one of the scariest moments of my life & you enjoyed it...

 What to do on a rainy day? How about pull you around the house in an empty diaper box w/ a belt!

Oh and play some Skip Bo!

Toothless Grin..

You are almost 14 months old and you finally have a tooth breaking through...there are no pictures b/c you will NOT let us touch it or see it! You love to have your teeth brushed and I trick you with the brushless side of the toothbrush (it slips on my finger) and can feel it! So maybe one day soon when it pops through we can snap a quick pic! :)

Daddy put together your bike you got for your birthday & you love it! We have slowly been pulling things out so that you get to enjoy each thing considering you got so much stuff!!

You were so smiley that morning!

Dancing with Stephy, you love to dance!

Puppy love...idk if you can see clow back there giving loving's too!

Super cool girl!

Soph got a haircut...it was much needed & I'm sure she is very thankful for it considering you would pick her up by her hair! Haha

Mommy got a new look...no more blonde!

Oh I love your face here...mine not so much but I couldn't pass up that face!

Chasing dragonflies! Here lately you are infatuated with birds, so we went outside to watch the black birds in the yard and you will say bird...well the drangonflies were going crazy and you were trying so hard to catch one so you could check it out but they are much faster!

We had a date last night called Sandbox & PB&J...we just played and played b/c Daddy was gone it was fun! I gave you your first Cheeto & you loved it, it was kinda funny how you ate it you wouldn't bite all the way down just a little at a time...must have felt good on your gums.

This is your latest....who knew in 5 minutes you could unroll all of the toilet paper, unload the dirty clothes hamper, anndd manange to find the toilet bowl scrubber! Ahhhhh! LOL glad you were entertained!

random thoughts....

This has nothing to do with Paisley, I'm in a sappy mood & just want to write. Since Trek's passing I've been reading Chelsea's blog, praying for their family, and trying to process it all. Trek wasn't a family member, actually I've only met him once, more than many got to and for that I'm forever greatful, but this little boy has made such an impact on my life. I know times go by where I look back and think man was that really worth it, I'm not promised tomorrow. Before Trek came a long I don't know that I gave much thought to the fact that you aren't promised tomorrow...I got irritated when my house was a mess ( I still do but I try very hard to let them destroy it and just pick it up at nap time and nights), sleepless nights were hard but now I realize how lucky I am to have these moments. I didn't want another baby, not because Paisley was a hard baby but because I was happy with just one. Now we look at life differently, Paisley needs a friend someone to share these adventures with, someone that if somethign ever happened to us she could grieve with. I've never lost anyone close to me, I don't know how I will react. Chelsea & Jarrett handle all of this so gracefully, she thanks the many posts she gets...I see myself angry & just wanting to be alone....man I hope I don't really act that way (this thought is what triggered this blog...there is no sequence to its just random thoughts.) So I want another baby sooner than later, but I also want to be able to spend more time with our kids, I want to work less hours because soon they will be in school and I won't have this time. I was supposed to work 3 days a week and well....you see how that went. I need to talk to my uncle about this but b/c of how it went down last time I can't bring myself to do it...soon I will.Right now I want to get everything right, get all of the air cleared with everyone so that we can live peacfully w/ no heavy hearts of things that just don't matter. My husband & my daughter are the most precious gifts God has given me, God granted me with the most patient, easy going man he could have ever created & the most up beat & happy little girl in the world, I am so very thankful for the characteristics of both of them. I am the total opposite of Joseph, I'm a worrier...I stress over money (i have an excel spreadsheet that i open up at least once a week), I stress over things I can't control, I stress over whats for dinner and lately I've really slacked b/c honestly I enjoy playing the sand box more than i do slaving over a stove & its worth the $20 we spend at the resturarnt down the street. I hope that I can continue to do what matters most, not that starving is an option lol, but I don't want to live life so serious I want to chill out and just enjoy what i have at that moment & I owe Chelsea for helping me come to this conclusion b/c without her words on her blog I don't think I would have been shaken. Little did we all know that a little boy that never took a step or said a word could make such impact on someones life, man I'm so very thankful for him! My heart breaks for thier loss but I know they are so proud of the message that Trek sent out to the world! RIP little man & thank you so much for the message!

Heaven Got Another Pair of Wings Today

We heard the story that changed our outlook on life about 5 months ago. Trek was a 9 month old baby boy, you at the time were 8 months, that had been diagnosed with a rare genitc disease that would take his life by the time he was 3. This family is so special to me & I actually got the honors of meeting them in April & got the chance to snuggle sweet Trek. I've learned a lot from a little boy that couldn't walk or talk...EMBRACE LIFE! We have done a Scentsy fundraiser to help support the Ingram's as they traveld the world with thier 3 boys.

This morning at 6:20am I got a text from Trek's Great Aunt Jalene with the heart breakign news that he had passed away. Last night Trek's mom Chelsea posted that the hospice nurse told her 4 weeks ago that they wouldn't have much longer, oh it breaks my heart just imaging life in her shoes. She is by far the strongest woman I know & I hope to be as great of a parent as she is. She has truely taught me several lessons just through her words on her blog that I am beyond thankful for.

Trek Atlas you will never be forgotten you sweet little blue eyed angel.

To read more on the Ingram's visit http://www.oursonnylife.com/ .

Hiii/Photo Dump

Your new favorite word is Hi, you walk around saying HIIIIIya Hiiiiya! It is one of the funniest things ever!

I have so many pictures on my phone that can't just live there & since I'm only doing monthly posts (and important milestones) they tend to build up!

Monster Face!

 This kid LOVES ice cream!

Packaging you up to send you to MeMe! : P

 (man she looks like my twin here)

 Taking Soph for a ride!

 Taking care of your herd.

This was my baby from when I was a little girl & she loves her. 

 I have the craziest kid in the world, you played in this pan for at least 30 min.

 Watering the flowers

See that smile, that my friends is why I keep Soph.

ROCKS! 

 Your new kitchen.

CHEESE! 

 What?

 DIVA!

 Sleepy Angel

 Love the shades!

 I told you to get off...and this is the face I got! I swear the the dishwasher is going to break!

Awww 

Oh that face! 

 I think that watermelon trumps ice cream!

 More yummy watermelon!

 Jumping with Daddy & Gunner (GUH)

Mouth full of watermelon!